When Sadness Strikes You for No Reason

I don't know why at this moment i feel suddenly blue. *SIGH

hopefully tomorrow when i woke up it will disappear.

I don't want to live with this kind of feeling.

Because it makes me feel Insane.

-tinehinish

Why I still have no Boyfriend? (A Confession vol. 1)

Annyeong!

This would be my first ever"Tagalog-English" blog.Since there's no further announcement yet of our exam in my other subject I decided to do this blog. *sigh 😔

Some of my friends, classmates, acquaintances, relatives, asked me, "why I still have no boyfriend"? At this age (oh! it hurts me a little, when the discussion is about of my age. Gudnes! 😭) dapat nasa isang relationship na daw ako. Kasi almost Ng mga ka edad ko may boyfriend na, may asawa at pamilya na nga ang iba. Konti nalang kaming natitirang "single". I don't understand those kind of people, parang gustong gusto nilang magmadali ako sa bagay na yan. Well in other side napapaisip ako. But still! this is not a reason to make my self rush for that thing. I do have a lot of dreams to pursue. And maybe because I learned a lot from my pasts.

~the confession~

When I was in my high school days. Gustong gusto ko Ng magka boyfriend, kaya pag may nanligaw basta bet ko go ako, since im still young at that time, at super pabebe pa, nauuna talaga ang emotions before anything else. Naiintindihan ko ang mga teenager ngayon, tho hindi naman lahat longing sa tinatawag na "storge love" or anything pero gusto lang talaga nila ma experience ang mag ka boyfriend (and im one of them "before") Yung feeling na may ka HHWW, may maglalambing sayo, and so forth. And also I can't blame them now, dahil sa nakikita nila thru social media sites and television.

 So yun dahil nauuna nga ang emotion kaysa sa mind, because of that  all of my past relationships didn't work out, it got ruined. Most of the time  I'm making a decision ng di napagiisipan ng maraming beses, madami din akong nasaktan,at maraming beses din akong nasaktan. But now Im regretting all of it. Hindi ako nakinig sa mas nakakatanda sa akin, mas inuna ko ang emotion ko rather than to listen to them, and also ang inggit ko sa mga co teenager ko na may partner (before) and also  I don't even think for my future, basta before ang alam ko about sa future ay yung makakasama ko forever.

Dahil excited tayo pumasok sa isang relationship nakakalimutan natin ang una dapat nating gawin, dapat kinikilatis muna nating mabuti ang makakapartner natin. Kaya karamihan nauuwi sa  heartbreak kasi kulang tayo sa idea ng paano ang magkilatis ng mamahalin natin. Basta nalang tayo naniniwala sa mga mabulaklak nilang pangako, at dahil kinikilig naman tayo yun "grab the opportunity", hindi na natin napagiisipan ng madaming beses. Basta pag na inlove tayo di na natin iniisip ang magiging future, kasi tiwala tayo sa kanila.

But for now, i can't say that im matured enough, but when it comes to love life, pinag iisipan ko muna ng "million times" lahat ng magiging possibilities, before to enter the relationship again, so if ever na dumating na ang perfect time alam ko na ang gagawin ko. Simula kasi ng nag seryoso ako sa totoong minahal ko, na akala ko siya na talaga pero hindi pala. Sobrang nasaktan talaga ako at alam kong given na yun(ayoko ng ungkatin yung kwento masyadong mahaba 😂) at nahirapan akong mag move on.

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So the time comes I prayed to God.  I surrendered my heart to him, and let him to work on it. Sinarado ko muna ang puso ko para sa bagay na yun (love life). And now i'm patiently waiting for his perfect time para sa darating na nilaan niya para sa akin, i'm not in a hurry. Maybe he allowed those things to happened because he has a purpose, and because of that, now I learn how to wait patiently, how to enjoy my single life, how to trust him when it comes to these thing, he created me, he owns me so I know that he knows what is the best for me.And I know that he knows what kind of man that I wanted to live forever and I also know that he will give the man that will deserve my love, the God fearing man to take care of me and for our future family, the right man 👨who will choose God first before anything else, the God fearing man who will put God as a center of our relationship. And also I know sa paghihintay kong ito, everything will be worth it and perfect👌

However im still in the chapter of processing, getting my heart to be ready for the next chapter of my life . But for now , masaya ako sa nangyayari ngayon 😊  na eenjoy ko lahat ng bagay sa mundong ito. Though sometimes may mga di talaga magagandang nangyayari but I know its part of being a human 😂😂😂 .  I'm studying hard for my future, gusto kong ma achieve lahat ng goals ko, specially yung nasa bucket list ko. 😊 i'm looking forward to my next chapter and it makes me feel more excited 😄.

To all girls out there, specially the "single ladies" let God hold your heart,no need to be rush, wag kayong ma pressure sa mundong to,i-enjoy muna ang single life 😊  darating din tayo sa time na yan,  kung nakikita  na ni Lord na ready na tayo at mature na tayo para mag handle ng relationship. He will give the man who will deserve your love. Just trust him. If it is hard for you, just think of your future, hindi siya gagawa ng ikakasama natin. Believe me you everything will be perfect as long as you trust him 😊 

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before I end, I gonna leave you this verse. I'm hoping that it will be helpful for everyone 😊

I admonish you, O maidens of Jerusalem, by the gazelles and by the young does of the open fields: "Do not awake or arouse love until it pleases!"

Songs of Solomon 3:5

Till next blog guys, I hope nakatulong ako. 😊  love yeah all!

~tinehinish